Love, love, LOVE!!! (this means JESUS!)

I have been having so much fun lately!

Ever experienced the delirious joy of being in love with Jesus? Well, go encounter God and get blasted! Best time of my life. No-one ever understands why I am so happy and possibly a little high; always thinks it is drugs or alcohol...errrm, no. JESUS! :D

Ahh, He is just so good!

I look all around me and I see Jesus, everywhere I look. Creation, people- it just awes me. Even when I see an amazing painting, or a really interesting old building, I feel myself going, "Woah Jesus, you are so awesome." It is so exciting! I love seeing God moving in everything. So awesome. I get my flags out and dance around with them in worship, and even the wind making them ripple fills me with wonder at the glory of God. Jesus, you are sooooooooooo GOOD! :D

So, Christchurch is going through this major awakening to the realization of God's presence and glory- it is really exciting! Everywhere I go I have been meeting people, like me, who are hungry, hungry, HUNGRY for more of God- people that are full on christians, raising the standard and becoming the old "normal": meaning; bible-believing, full of the Holy Spirit, carrying the fire of God. FUll of the power of God, working miracles, prophesying, seeing in the supernatural, *HAPPY*, and becoming intoxicated and abandoned in the heady love of our King. It's so exciting!!!

Three weeks ago I started praying for a new job, I've been desperately needing one with permanent hours because I am trying to save to go to BSSM (Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry) in Redding, California. Target date to leave is 25th August 2011- I have no idea why, that was just a date that God gave me. And I need enough money by then, and not having a proper job hasn't been helping the savings account.
Anyhoo, I started praying and looking on Trademe for jobs. I applied for one over the phone and the guy told me to come in: I had a two minute interview and I got the job!
It was fully God! And the pay is pretty darn incredible. AND, they are paying for me to get my General Managers license so that I can become the restaurant manager! JESUS much?? :D. Watch out Bethel, here I come!!!

In my lunch break a few weeks back I decided to go for a walk to Cathedral square, and I saw this big group standing way across the square by the road, and my little radar went "Oooo, JESUS!" so I went over to investigate. It was a bunch of young people hitting the streets with the power of God, sharing the Love with people, and praying. We saw HEAPS of healings!!! That was the best ever lunch break of my life! Got me so pumped...when I went back to work everyone was wanting to know what I had smoked. Haha....errrm, no. JESUS!


Loving this song ae- it speaks out pretty much exactly what I am feeling.

Intoxicating You are to me
Illuminating You are to see
Truly breathtaking You are to breathe
Sending my head swimming You are, You see

And I've lost my mind, I'm sure to find
Need to apologize for my
Lack of inhibition, for my
belligerent condition
But with You this near I'm dizzy

Inebriating You are to me
Completely captivating You are to see
Sending my world spinning You are, You see

And now I find a blurry line
Here between You and I
Raise the cup, drink 'til I'm full
Sing 'til I can't, 'til my voice is gone
And my head is spinning

La, la dee da
La dee da, dee da
Dee da da da
Hey la, la dee da
La dee da, dee da
Dee da da da

If I'm out of my mind it's You, You
'Cause I'm crazy in love with You, You
Inebriated by You, You
'Cause I'm head over heels with You, Jesus.



So yes. Jesus is where it's at peoples!
Go have an amazing day. Get into the real good stuff.
Love of God overtake you and blow your mind and mess with your senses.
Haha, go play with some angels or something.

Bless ya,
Maddi

Magic Kingdom

Magic Kingdom


Little girl dreams to be a princess
Wiggle my nose, away I go
Mirror, mirror on the wall
The face inside will tell me all
Beauty wakened with a kiss
Snow-white dreams, bed of bliss
Pretty in pink, a fragrant flower
Tucked inside an ivory tower


Middle-girl dreams to meet a lover
Strong, kind man to hold my hand
Gilded mirror on the wall
The face inside reveals it all
Beauty cheapened with a lie
Sordid dreams, bedroom eyes
Veiled in black, a ruined bride
Used, confused, and cast aside


Worlds away in a grownup land
Always moving, working, proving
Check the mirror on the wall
The face inside it shows me all
Beauty weakened with the years
Broken dreams, bed of tears
In the red and on the edge
Pressed in by a thorny hedge


King in bright and fiery light
Astride his steed, he rides for me
My mirror rests on heaven's throne
One glance to know as I am known
Beauty deepened by his face
Wildest dreams, bed of grace
Whitest robe and crown of gold
Bride of Christ, my future told

Resounding Love

I hear Your love so clearly
A whisper deep within
A reverberating echo-
A sweet song, luring me in

It ripples through my soul
And shatters my reserve:
Knocking down my walls
And sending life throughout my nerves

This love defies my logic
And confuses common sense
It messes with my knowledge,
And won't take recompense.

By Maddi
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I have this overwhelming sense of worship. I can't explain it. Words cannot express. I am trying to find a word that explains a bit of the extent- I don't think such a word exists. I inebriated, drunken, intoxicated, joyous, delirious, ecstatic, mad, obsessed, possessed, filled, overtaken, ravished, undone.
It is a feeling I can't describe- I just know that it is the love of God. So intensely I want God- every minute of every single day! *Nothing else matters*

I feel the movement of God's Spirit in me- I see a dance in my soul. I hear a wordless song that cannot be voiced: it's expression a deep cry from within. A reflection of glory that cannot be fathomed by man. The song that angels sing: the sound of the heavenly anthem.

Hahaha, I see Jesus. He's looking at me, and I'm looking at him. He is holding a cup and it is full of a deep crimson liquid.
He is saying,

"I am the wine
the JOY,
the fullness of bliss
the Ecstasy of Heaven
the madness of men...
...I am JESUS."

Jesus. Full of power and might: the embodiment of heaven, the definition of love.
He is so beautiful. So, so beautiful. I cannot fathom him- my mind is too small for comprehension; he makes me wonder, makes me awed. I try to understand him, but I can't. He loves me beyond anything I can imagine- and my imagination is pretty crazy!
I love him so much!! I can't begin to explain it to people- I just get lost in my search for words. His love has ruined me for any other thing- after being loved by God, how can you feel the love of another, unless it is of God...?

Ahhh. Jesus :D

Awakening in Christchurch

Hi All – this is a email an brother sent out the other morning on October 27 2010 –
Be blessed & Encouraged!

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Good Morning, Brothers and Sisters in Christ.

I am emailing you, because I know you to be a Christian or have heard that you are a Christian. I am writing to let you know that the Spirit of God is on the move again in Christchurch.
A prophet named Jason Westerfield, has been in the city and doing some meetings last weekend and God is moving in such a way that he has cancelled his agenda for the next month and is going to do meetings Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday nights for the next month. There have been a number or miraculous healings, most notably a women with a hole in the heart since birth has been doctor certified as being healed of that condition. Jason loves the Lord and is passionate about encountering him, he has been fully endorsed by Bill Johnson from Bethel and is a credible man of God.

I am not writing to get numbers to meetings or anything of the like, because North City Church (95A Sawyers Arms Rd), is not the church I got to. I am letting you know because when God begins to move it is exciting and not to be missed, ignored or rejected. The meetings are different to a normal church service, because God is coming powerfully, although this time around there seems to be only limited amounts of “shaking and baking”. Whenever the Lord comes he often comes in a way that breaks our religious mindsets, patterns and formulas, so it will challenge you but it is biblically and theologically sound, although some people always get into the flesh at times. This move has a focus on saving souls so is very exciting.

I know that everyone I am writing to are from different denominations and churches but God doesn’t align himself to any denomination or church, they have to align to different parts of his character. So whether you are Catholic, Protestant, Orthodox, Anglican, Presbyterian, Methodist, Baptist, Pentecostal, Charismatic or non-charismatic, we all serve the same God, and at this moment in history he is beginning to move by his spirit again in ChristChurch.

In recent history Christchurch has had several moves of God, and it seems that this is another one on the way. In the 80’s the lord moved powerfully through Murray Robertson at Spreydon Baptist church, in the mid to late 80’s he move through Peter Morrow at City Newlife (now the Majestic Centre) in 1992 he moved in Celebration Centre with Jill Austin and Murray Watkinson, this was before the Toronto blessing that happened in America in 1994.

The Meetings are at North City Church, 95a Sawyers Arms Rd at 6pm, starting 27th October.

Bless you all
Clark.
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Blessings guys, it would be awesome if you could join in prayer and fasting for the revival of Christchurch- on the weekend we got a word specifically for 100,000 souls.
Lets allow a move of God to rise up in all of us.

Love Maddi.

Beautiful or Not??

Beautiful or Not??

Mirror, mirror on my wall
Can't I be the fairest of them all?
Yet all I see when I turn to you
Is blemishes and ugliness, through and through.

Instead of the strength God has placed in me
A weak, fearful girl is all I see
And the way God sees me; which I know is right
I have thrown in a cupboard, and locked out of sight

I wish I was smaller and had straighter teeth
Cos' I've forgotten true beauty is found underneath
If only the clothes I wear were three sizes too big
Then I'd be pretty, and wouldn't look like a pig.

If my hair wasn't frizzy, and my eyes were more blue
Maybe then when I see you, I'd value me too.
Or if I had talent, and could do something well
Even that might help me get out of this hell.

Because gazing at you and seeing my yucky old self
Is down-right depressing~ it's bad for my health
There's so much I'd change if I just had the choice
Hang on! I'm hearing a new sounding voice....

It's telling me that looks aren't what give me my price
I don't have lesser value cos' my face ain't quite right.
I am God-perfect, and that wins the prize over man
And heck, Jesus ain't phased by my lack of a tan.

The truth is I am beautiful, exquisite, unique
God thinks that I have a gorgeous physique
He told me that I am the apple of His eye
And that the value within me in immeasurably high

So sorry ol' Mirror you've lost this fight
Your lies couldn't hack it, and they went down tonight
Bigger than lies is Jesus, and He lives in me
And when I look to you, He'll be all that I see.

-by Maddi


I thought someone might be encouraged by this- it is a poem I wrote last year about my struggle with accepting myself. I think a lot of girls- and guys- can probably identify with it.

I really pray that God would reveal to you how HE sees you.
May you walk in the identity you have in Jesus- may you know beyond a shadow of a doubt that you are perfect in His eyes- and that is all that matters.

You are the apple of His eye; His beloved; His precious child; His desire. He has placed a crown of splendor on your head- and He has chosen YOU and His love is for you.

You are precious and honoured in His sight- He delights in you. He summons you by name and gives you a title of honour.

He made you and will carry you- He will rescue you. Before you were born He knew everything about you- He wants to display His splendor in YOU.

His unfailing love for you cannot be shaken. He wants to build you with turquiose and sapphire; He is making you to be a crown of splendor in His hand- a priceless jewel.

You are His delight, Beloved.

Sleep in the reassurance that you are His....

Love Maddi

JESUS!!

Once again I find myself on the beach seeking my King.
I'm watching the waves arise and then break open with all of their power- and I hear God say, "Revival is going to hit like that: over and over without ceasing; each new wave releasing a greater abundance of power."

The sun had been hiding behind the clouds and just now it came out. I saw it illuminate hundreds of fishing lines along the pier that a moment ago had been concealed. And it was like God speaking to my heart saying that SOON people will see the power of God in a whole new way- the manifest presence & power of God which we have rejected and ignored for so long is beginning to be revealed in an overtly bold way. It won't just be those with eyes open to see and ears open to hear that will experience it- but every single person.

And I speak to myself more than to anyone else: We need to ARISE!
We need to stand up, step up to the mark and be a generation that reveals JESUS to the world- in every aspect of who He is...that means breaking and loosing, healing, cleansing, freeing, releasing....
We CAN'T afford to be settled in complacency- we have to break that off and become desperate. So desperate that we wouldn't hesitate, but would do WHATEVER God requires to reach our Nations, without a second thought.
That like Paul we would be willing to be fools for Christ (heck, we are fools in so many OTHER ways- why can't we be foolish for Jesus?): that like King David we would say, "I would become EVEN MORE undignified than this!"

When will we start to not care about what we look like to others or what they are thinking?
When will we become so starving for God and so hungry to extend Him to the world that we stop at nothing?

I want to say NOW! I want to be a part of a crazy, consumed, desperate, God-thirsty generation that lives Jesus to His world. Every day.

Amen- SO LET IT BE!

You ARE Loved: Emmeline

To Emmeline.



-You ARE Loved-

Little girl, sweetie-pie
Lost and so confused
You don't feel loved and precious
Just hated and ill-used

You think that you can't do right
That you always fail
You blame yourself for others wrath
Your soul is feeling frail

You feel despair, you want to die
You think that'd solve the pain
In your mind you run so free,
But in life you're bound and chained

You lack the hope to pull you through
You slip from the truth of Truth
You are lost within the darkness
Of the deep, black hole you're in.

When you start to feel destroyed
When the enemy's attacks being
Remember Jesus is your Victor;
And Satan cannot win

I know you often feel alone
But this really is not true
Jesus ALWAYS holds you tight-
And this is what He says to you:

"You are so deeply dear to me
You're My beloved and My bride
And this love with which I love you
Binds you closely to My side.

My Daughter it hurts so much to know
You believe this to be true:
That if you do something slightly wrong
I delight in hurting you!

I would never do that My Love
I died so pain can't hold you down
Each thing I do to you is fully good
You live under My smile-not a frown

Please don't doubt My love for you
For it never, ever ends
It washes over you each new day
For you, from Heaven, it I send

I have a book that holds Your story
It's pages tell a plan
But I've left many blanks within-
You'll have to choose if you listen and follow;
Me, the Son of Man."

-by Maddi


"Therefore all those who devour you shall be devoured: And all your adversaries, every one of them shall go into captivity; Those who plunder shall become plunder, And all those who prey upon you I will make a prey. For I will restore health to you, and heal you of your wounds," says the Lord, "and they shall no longer call you an outcast." [jer 30.16-17]


"The Lord will cause your enemies who rise against you to be DEFEATED before your face; they shall come at you one way and flee from you in seven ways." [duet 28.7]


"No weapon formed against you shall prosper, and every tongue that rises against you in judgement you shall condemn. This is your heritage as a servant of the Lord." [isa 54.17]


Be blessed!
love maddi